Not so Quiet

I lost my voice
overheard too many whispers
and started to believe
it's so quiet now,
so quiet,
but filled with anxiety

these beliefs, like stone
just weigh down
every innocence
and it's so quiet now,
so quiet,
but filled with worry

it feels like the whole world lied
and bits of truth
were like fireflies
there and gone
not really sure
if it was there at all

and it's so quiet now,
so quiet,
but filled with lies

those agreements that were made...
I don't ever remember agreeing-
remembering all I was taught
to forget
is like a war inside

It's not so quiet now,
not so quiet,
but filled with disbelief
at a world that taught me how to be...
taught us how to be silent

09/29/10